Hello internets,
I apologize in advance if this post comes off as whiny, TMI,
or angsty. I have had a lot of things on
my mind lately (ha!) and wanted to take a minute to share my thoughts and most
of all gratitude to my friends, family, and community.
Anyone who really knows me knows that I love change. I would
like to think that my upbringing (constantly moving to foreign countries)
prepared me well for the Foreign Service. Yet, I have to admit that the last
year at the Peterson house has been a constant whirlwind and admittedly I have
at times struggled with the changes. Ryan joined the FS last September (I cannot
believe it was only a year ago!) and since then nothing has been the same. It’s
been a crazy year. We bought a house, got pregnant, moved twice within 6
months, arrived in Ciudad Juarez, and had our sweet little Senor. I would be lying if I said we managed all of
this without a lot of murmuring and tears (out of anger/frustration/etc.) on my
part.
I am embarrassed to say that over the last few months here
in Juarez I have often called Ryan (or other family members) in tears, complained
constantly about possible employment prospects, and generally become a bit
emotionally unhinged. I don’t want to embarrass
him, but Ryan has been my rock throughout this crazy transition. I couldn’t
even begin to imagine what I would be like at this point without his love and
support. He deserves a medal for dealing with all of my hormonal madness. I am also grateful for our loving family members
and a wonderful consulate community who have embraced our little family.
El Senor’s arrival has also thrown me for a bit off a loop.
It reminds me of the scene in ‘Juno’ where Jennifer Garner’s character is
holding her son for the first time and she turns to Juno’s stepmom and says “How
do I look?” Juno’s stepmom replies "Like
a new mom. Scared Shizless." I am currently
experiencing said terror, but the love and support from my family and friends
have given me enough courage to hold on. I have no delusions that this will be
an easy transition, but like the others we have experienced over the last year,
I know that this one will be more than worth the while.
So in the meantime I doubt we will be posting many (if any)
pics of fun baking projects (don’t worry I won’t/can’t stay away from my
favorite hobby for too long). Though times keeps a-changin' and I expect there
will be some more tears (mostly mine, not El Senor’s) I know we will be able to
make it through this. Maybe you don’t believe in divine intervention but I can tell
you that the events of just the last few weeks have reaffirmed my faith in a
loving God who wants us to be happy. Just my two cents.
Love,
Sarah
* Disclaimer: I actually don’t really like Bob Dylan. Before
I get any hate mail I would like to clarify that I think he is a brilliant
songwriter, but I really don’t like his voice that much. Regardless, I felt the
title of this song was an appropriate way to summarize how the last year has
felt to me.